T minus 400 days

I am five days closer to 40…what’s a girl to do? Keep busy is what I say. I have used the last five days spending time with family and friends…the important stuff. I do believe that is just the most important events of our day; the moments we get to spend with our dear ones. I knew this for a long time, even before the reason I know it now. This weekend I participated in an Asthma Walk. For the second year I a row, my kids and I put on our purple t-shirts with their homemade design and walked a 5K. My friends put on their purple t-shirts as well and joined us on the walk. This year we added purple balloons and tiaras along with our purple & pink ribbons pinned on our shirts. We walked, we talked, we laughed along the way and the whole time, in the back of our minds, we remembered why we were there. My daughter, my baby girl of just six, died as the result of an asthma attack just last summer. It was and remains the worst event of my life. I miss her everyday in every way. As I get closer to 40, I cannot imagine that I will miss her any less. As busy as I try to stay, the moments of pain, of clarity of what her departure means to me, hit me and I can hardly breathe…but I continue to walk.